Anxietyetc:youaren'tALONE believe in hope

(HIATUS INTRO)) i needed to write this even though my texts can rant on. The journal should be titled how anxiety changed my life for the better and plus if you feel alone depressed or anxious you arent alone BUT THAT IS A LONG JOURNAL TITLE IS IT NOT?:-8. i have anxiety. Hence why I can be high on life alot and hyper because I get anxious even if I have one thought like oh no I need to do something and that feelin of sick to your stomach or stomach in knots for no reason I deal with this by thinking of good memories or music. A good escape and medicine. Oh and laughing yay!<3 life isn't that bad as you think//! And If you have anxiety or anything you struggle with  too its alright. You aren't a freak or a loser or alone or unloved . Just like if you deal with anything or get misunderstood because of  like depression, PTSD, autism or anything at all..it doesn't have to define you. You are so much more than that. Believe in you baby! You deserve Happiness and you aren't alone. Also to people i look up to..some of them have anxiety or depression or dealt with thos and this made me feel not alone with anxiety because they are relatable. I want to be relatable with you guys too as a big sis or if im a role model or i dont know thats awesome. I wanna show you im human and not a always a happy robot. Most time time im positive ans optimistic but im the person that if i see one bad comment out of a lot of good ones i can overthink them sometimes and itll try to stop me from being motivated and becomes a reoccuring thought (ocd) or washing hands too much and stuff ill keep to myself. Its about still being happy and makin the most of life and that its okay to struggle and cry. It is human nature. It isnt healthy or humanly possible to be 24/7 happy baby. Thats okay. I am guilty of being too sensitive but hey im proud because it lead me to wanting to help people and a good or big heart is something to be okay with thats what i think. <3There are others out there with the same struggles and you aren't alone or a freak or a bad person for struggling with anything. I love you and someday you will feel better  even if you don't believe me try to be hopeful cause its better than just thinking it is all pointless and hopeless and that doesn't help anyone. And if you can't help but think that it's okay and I wish the best for u and you'll be happy someday baby <3 anxiety story bit: Being online alot has contributed to that when i was 13 however its helped me find my purpose and even though I have it or don't feel like goin online cause it can trigger me to spend hours hence why I take a few hiatus breaks-:7 I found what I love doing. And spending hours online I find it more worth it even if sometimes I feel exertion from hours ticking by and I just go give advice or reply to someone in need and search for random profiles to spread kind messages too because I wanna (read on to the next few sentences on how its changed my life but made me stronger as a person and proud I'm still here even when there are days of oh my gosh ) SO TODAY i went on YouTube and went on to some videos where people felt lonely or like how no one could relate to them. I replied to as many as I could before I had to go to sleep which is about a few mins from now:-') but I wanted to quickly post this because just in case anyone needs this or I don't know. Because I love you all so much and you are my family and I instantly just thought of sharing this with as many people so that they can feel better or like they can keep going. I will be sharing a status that speaks to my heart at the end of this article journal about how you aren't alone but just a lil info right now on how anxiety may feel unbearable to me when I was 14/15 it helped kick off my career jk I don't get paid but ahem career/passion what kept me going alot-- Just seeing the message that people feel better about themselves or feel Inspired to help others and share more kindness online and offline..oh my gosh that's amazing. I can't tell you how people like you help changed my life too and felt appreciated even though I am positive and happy to feel like hey thank you for trying or just taking time to be kind. The point with kindness is to just be kind without wanting anything in return and I did that. And a message to myself or others if you feel you aren't appreciated or enough you are anyways. Look I don't care if I get recognition when I bust my bum off to reply to people and go to strangers profiles to give compliments or share happiness because why not even though I got stuff to do I love doing thi s for free. I don't get paid squat for doing all these hours and it will never nor has it ever felt like a wasted effort or time for me. When you do what you love and it helps you keep on loving life and being happy and living it. That is priceless and also do you know that you are priceless as well. I wanna help others feel motivated or inspired to help other people too besides loving life.  -OK that's cheesy sorry but hey its true I just want people to feel okay or happy. That change is within you too.WHEN I SEE OTHERS HELPING PEOPLE LITERALLY IM LIKE -YESSS OMGOSH THIS IS WHY I LOVE TO DO WHAT I DO! when people are creating and adding to the ripple of kindness and compassion that helps give even a bit of hope or more to our world and humanity and making the world a better place by trying. God bless. Like bless omgosh its the best feeling to me besides hugs and being high on life and eating pizza. Yess.<3  You can try to do your best and let someone know you care. It doesn't have to be strangers ( I ignore the fact it isn't the safest thing but this is where I've gotten most my feedback or audience from)) but just showing you care to a relative or close loved one can be just as personal and it is just about having that good intention of caring for another human being and spreading kindness and ...lastly..compassion. Just thank you for being you and being there for people you love and who love you or anyone you talk to. You..if you don't know this..that even just one comment or action of kindness can go a long way..you unintentionally may have just helped someone through something or helped them keep on living or helped give them strength and hope. It isn't about credit or who can help others more. It's the fact that you helped someone feel special, not alone or worthless etc. Love is a natural human emotion. Sometimes you have to be an example of it too by reaching out to people because some don't know how to do that and that's OK. We all learn and deserve to be here. We will help or be helped at some point in life. NOW ;@;<33 DAWW Just the fact that we all have the power to help people feel loved and cared for and not alone. I wanna say thanks for doing your best SO PROUD OF YOU HOLY COW!<3 ;-; Trying is better than doing nothing at all. If people don't get it?

That's OK. Everyone is entitled to their opinion. Just keep doing your thing your mission whatever it is. Don't stop believing in you or giving up fella/fellow.    And to those who go out of their way for some reason to hate or RIDICULE or bully or even just comment to point out something wrong with something lol why do you do that. It is a level potato thing to do and irrelevant like why..why.  When you see people post a comment like that you can wish the best for the person that received that comment or message and or show them some love and comment something nice. I believe the amount of nice comments and override the amount of mean ones. The mean ones will always just be mean. And no one likes those.  However kind comments can help give a sense that things are worth it and do help in a way even if people don't know how to respond or react to them. Some people won't know how to or may not appreciate it even though you have done nothing wrong but just try to be nice to them just keep walkin on and doing spreadinf positivity and good stuff because it is better than nothing. This little bit is advice to myself too. Not every one will get you or your mission but know that it does help someone and as long as someone can be helped to keep on keeping on or to feel not alone and that things will be better, I did my job  right.   IF YOU EVER NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE PLEASE CALL A HOTLINE OR MESSAGE A FRIEND, TALK TO ME ANYTIME OR visit groups like deviant-heart, deviant help with life forums, a support group,happy-squad, support groups offline or on Facebook or tiny Buddha or anywhere or better yet talking to a doctor or someone offline or a family member or your dog <3 I love you miracle thank you for being here and existing xoox LA love you. Fall is in the air!!  Next journal : happiest memories in my fav season -fall<3 and ways to be inspired for fall!